When They'll Tell People About You, This Is What They'll Leave out

Your love, it changed them. You were there through everything. No matter how dark it got, no matter how many times they didn’t appreciate you, left you in the rain, no matter how many times they felt the need to explore their so called “options.”

And every time they came back, realizing that you were the only one, realizing what they had, that you are one of a kind, you took them back. Because you never wanted to give up on something so special, you believed in them, you believed that people could change, and simply, you wanted it so badly.

You loved them too much.

But this is not what they’ll tell people when they’ll speak about you.

When they’ll tell people about you, they’ll leave out all the pain they caused you. They’ll leave out how many times they made you cry, made you feel like nothing, worse than nothing, the kind of worse than nothing that you can only really understand if you’ve been abandoned by the person you loved most in this world. The kind of pain that leaves a permanent scar.

When they’ll tell people about you, they’ll leave out all those nights. The nights where you thought you would die from laughter. The nights with heated debates at 3am that changed you both - made you grow, feel understood, alive. The nights where you stayed up talking all night and felt your walls crashing down. The nights where you felt your hearts unguarded. The nights when they talked about those moments that changed them, left an imprint on their soul. You were the only one they showed those parts of themselves to, they gave you all of them, and you were there, listening, loving every part of them, every edge.

But this is not what they’ll tell people when they’ll speak about you.

When they’ll tell people about you, they’ll tell them that you turned out to be this, and you turned out to be that. They’ll call you "crazy," they’ll call you clingy, insecure, demanding, unappreciative. They’ll say that they’re better off without you, that you were too much, too controlling. They’ll conveniently leave out everything they did to you, put you through. They’ll leave out why you were so angry.  

They will conveniently “forget” about how they spun you around in their web of toxicity and drowned you in all their issues. They’ll “forget” about all the times they pushed you away, made you question your worth, question what they were doing and who they were with. They’ll forget about how they made you their emotional punching bag and pushed you to your breaking point. 

They’ll forget that you fought with them because you cared. You challenged them because you loved them. You confronted them because you would never let them settle and not get everything they deserved. You believed in them. You craved more because you would never let them get away with slacking on their talents or putting in effort towards your relationship because you knew what you had. And they were never left uninspired or unsatisfied.

But when they’ll tell people about you, this is what they’ll leave out.

They won’t tell people how they hurt you so badly that eventually, you left, even though you still loved them. They’ll leave out how many chances you gave them before you had enough. They won't tell people how much of your love they took, how cowardly they were, how they always loved themselves more.

No, dating you was not the end of their liberty; it was the beginning of it. But this is not what they’ll tell people. This is not what they’ll tell themselves.  

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